Plus and Minus.

A math teacher came up to me today.

'So you didn't make the school captain huh?'

I shook my head. To be honest I hadn't really gotten rid of every tear of regret/annoyance in my system just yet and I was already sick of talking about it.

'I can't comment on the decisions made, but you're going to go far Miss Charli. If I go off how you works in my class then I assure you, you have no problem.. I want to give you this.'

He hands me an A4 piece of paper, an email print out. Here's what it said:

'Bill Gates recently gave a speech at a High School about 11 things they did not and will not learn in school. He talks about how feel-good, politically correct teachings created a generation of kids with no concept of reality and how this concept set them up for failure in the real world..'

Rule 1: Life is not fair - get used to it!

Rule 2: The world doesn't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Rule 3: You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice-president with a care or phone until you earn both.

Rule 4: If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss.

Rule 5: Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: they called it opportunity.

Rule 6: If you mess up, its not your parent fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

Rule 7: Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning you clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.

Rule 8: Your school may have done away with the winners and losers, but life HAS NOT. In some schools, that have abolished failing grades and they'll give you as MANY TIMES as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

Rule 9: Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF. Do that on your own time.

Rule 10: Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

Rule 11: Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.

So many people try and help me. So many people believe that I'm going to be this amazingly great person. I have so much opportunity to accept every type of help.. I really hope I don't bum out next year. The worst thing I can do is be disappointed in myself.

I reckon I've had that from the start. The very start.. Before anything had changed.

This is all in relation to the school captains announced last night, and even though I think I'm still hugely upset, I kept it good all day. Hugged Mac (vice), who I was honestly unbelievably happy for. Congratulated Max Lee like a bajillion times since he was so freaking excited for the experience and he's worked so hard for the past 4 years. My hug with Monique, (vice) was emotional. That's when I had to bail to the bathroom really quickly and make sure yesterday afternoon didn't repeat itself. I just knew I could be in her shoes and although I'm unbelievably happy for her, I can't say I'm not hugely envious. God damn it, I hate human emotion :/.

I had so much support today. Especially Mac and Monique, they were just too cute about it. I think they knew they were lucky to be where they were since it could have been any one of us..

Eamonn admitted how sad it was to see me cry yesterday. He said he would have rather personally sabotage speech night and risk expulsion to MAKE them read out my name, just so I'd stop crying. Everyday our conversations bring us closer. I think one day without hugging him and I'd be close to the edge. He's just my absolute rock. ♥♥♥

Speaking of which, my other rock is drifting.. Clarke is hardly around it feels. And so bad to say, but I'm having a great time. It's the Charli and Eamonn show, with China/sport/life relatability and then there's Clarke and Foochild who can tell each other anything out of long based trust. I really miss her :/.

I've too much lately, so I'll just stop here. It was Luke's birthday today and I got him a block of chocolate with a love heart post-it saying, Happy Birthday! You're pretty cute ;) I love you, Charli x. It was adoress :). Getting him a real present tomorrow afternoon with Eamonn. Don't know how much he'll like that though, considering his thoughts on Eamonn :/.

Why is everyone so against my literal best friend? He's actually my all time favourite person. And that's no joke. He'll be one of the only ones to stick around forever.

C. x

For better or worse.

小狼 - Eamonn, is my best friend. He is literally everything to me and its so much more then gay highschool love now. It's not even a crush, its hardcore love..

He saw me cry today. He was fine to hug me for however long I needed him and I know he would smash anyone I asked him to. If he could, he'd tuck me in tonight and make sure I don't move an inch in my sleep, just so I'm happy. He's just everything.

'I owe u, for everything u have done for me xx. Ur my best mate and I love you man.'

He's perfect.

To explain, I didn't get school captain :(. I got the phone call on Eamonn's phone at literally 3:05 this afternoon. Admittedly, I didn't think I would be too upset, but just something about not recieving any position made me (is making me) squirt some tears. I didn't think I wanted it that much, but I obviously did. Luke didn't get it either, so we are free to make-out whenever again :D. I guess the work load would've been hectic and I already suck at time-management.. It's a learning curve and a step forward.

There's no one you love more then your best mates. Especially one in particular ^^.

C.

Giggle while its here.

Angus and Julia Stone, you'll get me through this stressful stressful day.

A biology assignment draft due today in which I haven't started. I find out at 4 o'clock this afternoon whether I got some sort of captaincy. I'm sure I haven't though, so I'm actually quite content about that. Just trying not to picture how amazing it would be if I was awarded it... :(.

Oh well, the boyfriend will also bring me through. I feel more and more excited to see him by the day.

This is what highschool is about. Cheers to another year down :).

C

We kiss our noses.

That's my lovely boyfriend ^^. There on the end :). He turns 17 this Thursday and I am literally STUCK on what to get him. His best friends are buying him a knife :|. Yes, an actual knife. Like a machete or something.. Ahaha, I'm thinking of getting him a girlfriend sort of present. A keychain/ring/necklace engraved.? I have no idea.

No matter, I'm going shopping tomorrow and I'm telling him I'm going to get him something adorable that he'll be embarrassed to accept :P.

We're doing really well :). He's getting more and more comfortable and actually being able to joke around for once. We did get 'the decency talk' from the Principals yesterday. Since we're both shortlisted for Captains, they just need to make sure we understand the standard. I thought it was beyond hilarious and kind of adorable. Especially when the Principals both told me they had married their highschool girlfriends :P.

I love it :). Seriously not thinking I'm going to get School Captain though, which is disappointing :(. I'm preparing to run for SAC and just get it over and done with. I know I have the student vote :). Luke should get Captain though, I'll be so happy for him :D.

I'm actually starting to love him.

C, x

The Paranormal.

I had a pretty massive day tbh. I went to a 50 person birthday party, watched Paranormal Activity 2 and played Dota in an internet cafe.

But again, I was incredibly stupid.

I went to Dota with Eamonn and then got conned into watching Paranormal with him and his friends. What I didn't really count on was holding Eamonn's hand in the cinema. I'm so glad he didn't make a move, because I'm really scared I could refuse.

As you would expect I feel terrible having feelings for Eamonn.. I'm screwing up something good. God damn it.

Also Rosey now has a cuteee little boyfriend, Blake :). I love it! Cutest story ever.

This was a happy/confusing post, sorry.

C.

The Boat Cruise Kiss.

Why am I crying over Ethan? Ethan. Like, its Ethan. The little boy that asked me to the semi, the one that couldn't answer anyone when they asked if we were going out because there's no way he would want to offend me. The kid that was chubby with these pink cheeks and liked me for an entire year before finally holding my hand on camp.. He was so little. Is so little.

Admittedly, He doesn't look like that anymore ^. But he is still the same person and I do have a boyfriend. I'm not meant to just go on fbchat, have a 2 hour conversation finishing with, "god damn it, I miss you sometimes Ethan."

That's just being unfair. You're an idiot, a hard blown Aussie idiot. Great.

C.

我的天啊！三十七天。

Translation: "Oh my god, 37 days!"

I'm going to China in 37 days! Seriously, been waiting 4 years for this moment and now its actually so close.. I'm going into some sort of mental shock phase. I am so unbelievably excited, I have actually been peeing more frequently.

小狼 - Xiao Lang (Eamonn)

虎帽 - Hu Mao (Harry)

高龙 - Gao Long (Charli)

That's us. Our family. The only shit thing will be that I can't sleep in the same room as 小狼 and 虎帽, because of that girl/boy policy. He's literally my best friend though. And Harry is like amazingly Indie, which makes me love him :).

I'm so FREAKING excited.

C.

I'm back in the game.

I missed the game. And to be honest I think the game has missed me. How can blogspot be blogspot without know-it-all teenagers telling the world about their amazing lives?

I've been gone. Well more just hidden. And here's what you've missed out on:

To be honest, I say to be honest a lot. And tbh, in real life I actually say 'tbh'. So you're kind of just going to have to get used to it. Because its my newest phase and I'm sure if you hang around for another week I'll be on something different.

Oh my freaking lord of almighties.. I got short listed for school captain today!! Shortlisted?! As in they had to cut 3 girls and I wasn't one of them! I am so unbelievably excited and enthused, its like literally amazing. This is so much further then I thought I'd get.. even though the entire student body put me as their first preference. And they all made a note to tell me so :). God I love that need teenagers have to make each other feel great, I really do appreciate it.

I've got a boyfriend. An official boyfriend. His name is Luke and I will be referring to him quite often I'd say, since we're kind of adorable :). He got shortlisted too, which is good and bad. I don't want him to regret anything if he goes all the way and I don't. He really is the greatest person.

My best friend is finally opening up. My guy best friend this is. His name's Eamonn (pronounced A-man) and he's actually my all time favourite person. He's me. He is like THE most relatable and easy-going sporty kid I've ever met. Body of a demon and face of an angel, we could get married tomorrow. We will be married one day and have some freaking amazing kids :).

I work in a Bakery.. well I've worked there for like 2 years, but whatever. There's now the BEST person across the breezeway. His name's Matthew and he's also me. The life I want to live, in perfect form, is what's written in all of his diaries. He's also a better version of me in a 30 year old man. Actually, the fight for ULTIMATE person between Matt and Eamonn would be close. They are both kind of amazing.

To add to things that have changed in the past year..

I don't talk to my father anymore.

I'm unbelievably into art.

Music has become my literal life.

I fall further in love with KD everyday.

My twins are still exactly as I left them.

Clarke is still a giant and still amazing.

Rosey has joined our crazy group.

I grew up by one year.

I commonly do things I shouldn't.

I'm coping. :)

My name's Charli, but you can call me Charles, Charlotte or McD.

I'm 16 with no learners and an extremely competent boyfriend.

I somehow attract these amazing people into my life, which is why I make sure I never let them go :).

I'm part of the Delta Company for life.

C.