I'm finally growing up guys. Can finally say goodbye to that oh so wonderful childhood, can finally feel justified in buying an adult ticket to the movies.. I still can't relate to my parents, still can't do whatever I want, still don't earn any amount close to being independent, but I'm a grown up.
The difference is that I don't worry about those things anymore, I'm just here to leave some sort of mark on the world, not complain and bring up those things I can't do. I'd rather sit here and take it, then talk about the problems anymore. So say goodbye to negativity and hello to open-minded.
I've been thinking about my boyfriend all night and considering I'm writing this at 4:30am, its been a massive thought process. And the only conclusion that was drawn? I love him. I genuinely really want to spend every waking second with him. I wish he was here right now, just to talk to or joke with.
I had a conversation with Rosey's boyfriend today. He thinks I'm slack in my relationship, he thinks its not real because I don't want it to be, he thinks I don't understand the level of Luke's feelings.. And my response was, "Well its not that serious right?" Who am I kidding? It's pretty serious. I want it to be serious. I wish I was staying here in the holidays, or bringing my boyfriend to Isa, cause honestly I don't trust my brain to stay in this good form for a long period of time.
We'll get through it though, only because his half of the relationship is more then amazing. It will completely pick up the slack of my side.
He's too great.
C.
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