doodles and poodles

They're so cool. So necessary*. They can change a whole day, a whole time. E is so adorable. And that's the truth. I've always wanted to go to the formal with him. Always. He's been my boy. He is my boy, fuck it, he's my best friend. Ever. And I think its stupid that we weren't going together. I would take all my photos with him anyway. I would hold his hand at post anyway. He's take me home and kiss me on the cheek anyway. So.. why aren't we going together? :(.
'Cause for a reason unnecessary to listen to. Unnecessarily brought into this blog from clumsy conversations and technology misinterpretations; Captain Claire. Well isn't she fantastic. She's a person you're just in complete awe with every second of every day. She's so goddamn great, that it's actually hard for me to keep this spiel from turning sarcastic.I'm struggling.. giving in.. caved. She sucks.

So much. She sucks, so much. And E liked her. He had some thing for Asian girls. Lord, it makes me angry. Forgive me for the literal terrible thoughts I send her way, but she really does just rub the wrong way. She's fake, she's a perfect 'adult's teenager', she's just so gay that I can't believe she got school captain. I suppose I'm jealous, but I also hate her. Wow. Don't even get me started on hating her. Okay.

:D. G-news? E changed his mind ! He realised every bad quality and he's not going to the formal with Captain Gayface anymore! I think he thinks we're going. I'm going to ask him tomorrow, because honestly, we're in such a good place right now. And I love him so much. He's so epic.

Just ten billion x's.

C
* ps, only using the word necessary so frequently these days because I just learnt how to spell it and I never have to avoid it again ! Amazing.

Charles' World.

It's been a big month really. You could say school is hectic, but its more that I'm just unproductive and I can see it. I need more focus, as I always need more focus. I wish I had more help, but I'm really getting an absolute amazing amount of help compared to the effort I'm putting in..

Whatever though, talking about school is killer since I'm there legit everyday. Boys are more fun. The next big boy on the agenda is my date to formal. Everybody has a date. Every boy is taken I swear to G.
My options stand as follows:

1. Tall Boy. Still as amazing as always and as attractive. He's philosophical and understands the process of thought, conversations with him are great and he's probably my most likely date.
2. African. Oh my freaking Jesus, he is the hottest person you'll ever see. He's like heaven, put into an exotic body with a smile carved by angels. He's amazing, mysterious as shit. So he's only a possible, unless of course I asked him? Whatever works.
3. Footy player. Is adores obviously. Always love him, but he's influenced so highly from E that it's kind of unlikely that we'll go together. Plus I don't have the time to chill with them anymore, so we're sort of drifting a bit.

These options are obviously all perfect in their own way, but I have a feeling its going to result in me asking any of them, because hello they obviously haven't asked anyone yet. Keen for Tall Boy. He's taller then me. :D.

Oh and still need a dress.

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate

Don't mind me, I'm just jealous of how classy she is. Ke$ha you're my idol, from the heart !!

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with

We've have some good ones. We've had some even better ones. We've had some.. that I wouldn't recommend. Fuck this chicks amazing. ^ Air force :)

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

You know, probably because she influences me the most but she's a trooper. Nothing but love.

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

You're gay for mole man !

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item

My Rays, and my asian. Item wise, I'm set.

Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

Shit, there's so much I want to say to this person.

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory

Holy jeebers. a&j ♥

Picture 4: A picture of your favourite night

Representing every night with this guy.

Picture 3: A picture of the cast from your favorite show

They are so attracters. ♥

Picture 2: A picture of a person you have been closest with the longest

Bahahaha.
She's been Lulu on my phone since Grade 5, but been friends since Grade 4. That's freakin' 2003.
So much love right there. ^^

PIcture 1: A picture of yourself with ten facts

Facts:

1. My dad is a kiwi, but the posh kind.
2. I've only ever had one real boyfriend.
3. I plan on doing art for the rest of my life.
4. My favourite colour is green.
5. I wouldn't change one moment in my life, other then the times I've been caught.
6. I desperately want to be able to go to church.
7. Honestly I feel the only thing I've learnt from my parents is what people to avoid.
8. I'm a different person here in the city.
9. I write down the thoughts I want to remember.
10. This blog phase has lasted nearly 3 years.

Uncensored.

My parents aren't broken in. Mum doesn't let me go out, like legit. My curfew is 7pm.

How do you break it to your mum that you've already grown up? That she can't think you know nothing anymore, because fuck, you're starting to run this world. It's a touchy subject right? Wait till I tell Dad..

We're the retards running the next world. I love how you don't want to expose us to anything, because now we literally are retarded. Cheers.

Bro.

Too obsessed with what used to be. Obsessed with what should be right now, obsessed with art, obsessed with tumblr, facebook, laughing, work.
I'm working every second morning from 6am, then I kick it to school for a 9:00 start. I love work. I love grown-ups and laughing like an actual person, not a teenager.
I love love love sitting with the boys at lunch now. I love that we don't get invited to any gay shit and that we don't even talk to the gay people that sit on the grass. I love E. I love love those South Africans. And Marshy has been my favourite forever.
I love all of my classes and all of my teachers, and yet I'm totally freaking out.

It's like, every day of my life is sick, but the whole picture is inadequate. I wish I had lower expectations, but I wish more that I could fulfill my expectations.
I want to do well just because I know its possible. I want to have a sick life because I know it's not going to be that long before I die. It's such a paradox.

Legit, I'm upside down, but I look so strong with it all. If I could just not think about things so much..

Charles.

places i'd rather be.

I've got $10.57 in my account and I don't get paid until Friday. As soon as I get paid, I'm developing a camera that's been in the process for the last 3 months. How many photos missed the subject? How many needed flash but didn't get it? It's so exciting.

In the meantime I'm working every second morning which is the greatest wake up to any day. And I'm studying Maths B. It's frustrating and imprecise in giving the answer. None of its impossible though, so i'll get there.

Charles.

Re-sparked in experiencing this thing called life.

I just read all the contents of December last year, and I feel honestly selfish that I've deprived this blog of my life stories. My future self will be raging that I was too lazy and retarded to just blog like once a week.

I'm still not overly keen on the - heaps of words - outlook, but I'll just quick sums of this term:

• Broke Dek's heart.
• Passionately showed a lot of emotion to E.
• Handed in all my assessment.
• Bought an B'n'E ticket
• Became controllably popular around school
• Learnt the true meaning of leadership
• Finally earnt my Isa rep in the city.

That wasn't hard.